Renewed?

Taranis is over by almost 2 months and I haven't been able to commit to a decent eating plan nor have I been committed to a workout plan either....I'm in a self loathing phase currently.  However, a goal for the year is to improve my body image and part of achieving that goal is to push my body to the potential I believe is there.

I had a good chat with my coach the other night and it didn't revolve around working out or eating.  I read his blog and watch all of his videos and it never gets old.  I love watching the videos, his movements seem so effortless.  I want to look like I'm not dying while working out or that my for is actually pretty and correct.  #Motivation

I look around and I see ladies doing crossfit and it is constantly a blow to my ego, they look great and my belly hangs over my pants?!  WTF.  I remember when I started crossfit and changes were constantly being made I was loosing that winter weight I'd been carrying for years...I was committed and I was following paleo...then I had a cupcake...it was a slippery slope.  So here I am fatter than when I started crossfit!  WHat?  Yeah, I should join FA (Foodies Anonymous) At moments I feel like its a loosing battle and others I am so optimistic.  So for the past week I've cleaned up the diet and was doing some detox work and tomorrow I will be going paleo again.

I am about 2 months out from deployment and I am just trying to do the best I can before I step.  I joined a cf gym up by the base and I intend to follow their programming 3 days a week, which frustrates me because I want more however, I have class 2 nights a week down south so I will more than likely do endurance type work on those days.  I bought a set of ropes from crossrope that are awesome and I am definitely trying to add those workouts into my regime.

I was way more accountable when I had a coach and was blogging my workouts with intent.  So here I am, being accountable to anyone that reads this blog...I am also going to relay my paleo compliance as well.

I want a six pack and a nice ass...

CF goals for 2013
Deadlift 300# ---> Currently 265#
1st Muscle up ---> Currently Jumping?
Clean 165# ------> Currently 155# (sketchy)
CF Total =600 --> Currently 535
Link 10 butterfly pull-ups --> Currently 2
Snatch 120# -----> Currently 105#
75 UnB DU -----> Currently 40