How is it that I know how to eat, I follow a regular workout plan and yet I find myself here. Obviously, I know how to eat...the question is am I utilizing my knowledge to help myself? No. This weekend I gave the fuck up. Only to start back up tomorrow.
I had my thyroid tested, not even considering that was a problem until it was suggested by my doctor. Immediately I put all my hopes on that being the answer and I can't even put into words how crushed a I was when the doctor said it was all fine. An answer everyone else that is right in the brain would be super excited to hear. I felt like I received a life sentence.
Enter 'gut health' I've done my research, it makes sense and I've made plans to add in the foods and supplements recommended to get back on track, if indeed this were the problem. The thing that destroys me the most? My inability to stick to anything food related. How do I do this...what do I have to do to get my head right. I NEED to succeed.
Jordan and I had this silly discussion about a bikini photo and I want to reach it by my birthday...the farther I go down this hole the less light I see. Clearly in a really dark place right now.
Some day?
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