Keep eating that fatty...

I took my stomach circumference and it was almost 2" bigger than when I got to this place!! Whoa heart stopper and my sketchy fat caliper said whoa fatty keep eating that...needless to say I know my eating hasn't been the best since I've been here.  I struggled mentally for the last few months to diet or not to diet, basing my decision on the fact that I am here.  Pity would be the word.  I volunteered to come here and although I long to be home and I miss the comforts of being home, I made a choice to be here and deal with my situation.  I keep saying I'm going to do this challenge and that, but the fact is I need to find a lifestyle that works that I can adjust based on my body's responses.  In order to do this I have to be able to recognize what my body is saying. Central adiposity (more fat around the waist area)...according to some reading I have been doing this is associated with elevated stress levels.  How do I fix this?  I am living in a stress filled environment.  I have things outside of my control now that are causing a huge amount of stress for me, I am stressed about my lack of employment when I come back, I'm stressed about my body and the list goes on...

Two things I have taken away from this reading that I will start immediately are using breathing to calm myself down and getting enough good restful sleep.

I do this self test all the time in my room:

I call it my bagel

I am ready to leave it behind.  On my path of actually sticking to a program for 90 days, I am still on my LBEB Oly lifting program.  Already on week 4!  I have had some longish metcons on Saturdays and from the guidance of my forever coach I will be shortening those up to benefit what I am trying to accomplish.  Also, I have started adding ancillary work to help build strength into the MU!  I am also adding in some cardio to round out the next 90 days.  I have been reading Outlaws programming and I am eager to give it the next 90 days!  I really like his programming and also the way he writes...pretty entertaining.

In other news, I have a competition this Friday.  I am pretty excited to go to it, the first event is a clean and jerk ladder (jerk is optional), but I'll get to test all the work I have been doing on my clean and jerk!  On the Fourth to celebrate our independance I'll be running a 10k got to get that LSD in!

I've read 5 books since I've been here all interesting in their own way...my most recent was The Alchemist.  It was different but good.  I read it in one day.  Next on the list is Why Zebras don't get Ulcers.  Pretty excited to read that one and as always I am slowly plugging away at my nutrition cert!

I'll be taking pictures and posting them on 1 July or around there.  I have a buddy that said he eat healthy/clean to support me until I got but we are both taking pictures and are on the same workout plan.

Thats the news from here...stay classy

Determination

Determination...a new word for me.  I want to make it to regionals 2014, I am tired of sabotaging myself and being mediocre at the sport I love.  Time to make it happen.  Here's to phase 1 get an effing muscle up.

MU attempt #1

CTB Pull ups

Dips

MU attempt #2

Halfway through!! Frustration at a high.

Wow I haven't blogged here in a long time!  I have hit peaks and valleys.  I am finally on day shift and now that the weather is hot I feel lethargic by the time it is time to workout.  I have been reading and allowing myself time to relax and enjoy shows.  Food intake as always has been up and down.  I struggle between diet here in this place or allow myself the joy of eating what I want....I revert back to my sugar addiction with one single jolly rancher.  I have one week of eating as I wish closing on the day after my birthday, I will start the advocare 10 day cleanse + 3 days of the master cleanse.  The goal (w/ a plan) is to start adding food back in slowly, starting with veggies and depending on the soups add soup in the mix.  Maybe for a day or two and then add meat back.  On 1 July I will be starting the PN diet so this is priming the body for the 8-9 weeks to follow.  I will track my progress weekly if not daily on this page in relation to food intake/exercies/energy---overall health.

I have started the LBEB 12 week Olympic Lifting program this week and am forcing myself to stick to the 3x a week lifting + one metcon

6/3 Monday
Snatch
3x3 70% -70
3x3 75%- 75

Back Squat
4x5 75%- 165

PP BTN
3x5 70%- 70

Snatch Pulls
4x5 110%- 115

Pullups
3x6 - strict

6/5 Wednesday
Clean&Jerk
3x3 70%- 100
3x3 75%- 105

Snatch Balance
4x3 70%- 70

Front Squat
4x5 75%- 130

Clean Pulls
5x5 115%- 180

50 Situps

On another note, although I look no better and I actually have been eating shitty...lets check in on my goals I set in January...

CF goals for 2013
Deadlift 300# ---> Currently 265#-->BOOOM I got it!
Muscle up ---> Currently Jumping?--->Still jumping...
Clean 165# ------> Currently 155# (sketchy)---->still sketch at 155#
CF Total =600 --> Currently 535---> 615!
Link 10 butterfly pull-ups --> Currently 2--->6!
Snatch 120# -----> Currently 105#----> hit 110# it was weak and I don't want to count it so I say 105#
75 UnB DU -----> Currently 40----->haven't tested!

I thought I had set a Back Squat goal but I didn't, however my last 1RM was 205# and the other day I hit for 220#!!!!! Super excited about the gains!